I’m in a funk.
When did this happen? When I took a vacation. And didn’t work, or blog, or be on the computer at all, really. Which is wonderful, but I got out of a groove, and into a funk, and not of the George Clinton variety. And now I have all of these things to say, but I don’t know how to say them because I have funk-brain.
Aside from having to leave the beach – which is where I belong – and come back to the harsh reality of jobs and home-ownership in a place where I don’t want to be, a couple of things are contributing to my funkiness.
1. I had to leave my parents behind, which never, ever gets easier. In fact, leaving and facing the reality that we are not together more than a couple of times a year gets sadder and sadder with every visit.
2. I lost my steady income due to cutbacks. Without warning, and a day after coming back from vacation and draining the bank account so we could fill our house with groceries. At least we have food, though.
3. My computer is in the shop – again. This time to properly install programs that were not installed properly when it was in the shop the last time, and also to switch out faulty parts. This is fine, except I have projects that have now been neglected since the end of April. Neglected projects = unhappy clients, at a time when I really, really, really need happy clients.
Seeing my way through this stinky, hazy funk is not easy. But, I am perpetually positive, even if only because of my fear that the Universe will punish me further if I am not. So here is the good.
1. I got to take a vacation – at the beach, and see my family for the first time in almost a year!
2. We have a decent home, and my husband has a good job, and that is more than a lot of people have, so I should just be happy where I am for now while we plan what to do with the rest of our lives.
3. I lost a job that I hated. Detested. That made me crabby every morning because I had to do it. So now I get to sleep a little later in the morning. Plus, I’ve been working my butt off marketing my business, so I’m in a good position there. Something good will happen – it’s almost my time!
4. Without my computer, I have allowed myself some time to just be. I have been able to rest, reflect, spend time with and enjoy my children, and organize some things that were badly in need of some attention.
5. I was able to pull myself together enough to podcast! I’m very excited about that one.
So, there you have it. The bad and the good. The reasons why I’m in a funk and fairly silent lately, and how that might not be such a bad thing. Today is the last day I’m going to sit around and wallow. I swear.
How do you deal with being in a funk?